This morning, I was filled with feelings unlike anything I’ve ever experienced.

After spending yesterday retrieving boxes upon boxes of things from my childhood, it would make sense to be crushed, exhausted, and depleted.

Instead, I am shimmering rainbows and sunbeams.

Sharing life at depth with a new friend was a profound experience. We spoke about the worst things in our lives for six hours, mixed in with anecdotes, jokes, and happy tears as she had her story witnessed in a new way (completely separate from my activities).

What has always been a deeply shameful experience for me was… easy.

That is the power of capacity and community.

When they meet,
WHEN THEY FINALLY MEET!!!!!,
Things feel manageable.

I wept unlike I’ve ever wept before.

There is still withholding in my body,
But I honor her hesitance.

I do not need to force myself to feel everything right now.

I can relish in all that is to come.