Joy

Raw,
Unfiltered.

For some reason,
I am embarrassed by it,
But
It reminds me I am safe.

I am at home,
Surrounded by friends.
I am held,
Loved by these people.

For the first time,
I don’t pity myself.
I see it’s not my fault
That I have never been able to feel this.

There is no room for shame here.
I am loved like never before,
With faith and knowledge I will never, ever
Not be loved again.

May this love continue to find me.
Thank you, and Amen.